The aftermath

The aftermath of the bonus season is that the entire department is disintegrating.  Everyone that the head guy hired got a donut for bonus while he walked away the next day with all his guarantee.  Things are not looking rosy.

I was planning to leave anyway, but now it just reaffirmed it.  My interview last Friday went well but it has been quiet since then.  It's a small world and I wonder what concerns the head guy at a major bank would have.  How to lead a complex team where internally there would be competition is a hairy matter to manage. When there is money, there will be fights. I am a bit disappointed that almost a week after I met with the senior manager, I still have not heard back about the next step.  Patience.  Relax and wait.

Lots of people who came in my wave are unhappy with their pay.  The head of the department took me to a little room two days ago and complained to me about the entire bonus process and how he got a zero.  This is worse than any time he has ever worked at.  A change of dynasty.  Everyone who came with the leader suffered while he left with his bags of guarantee money.  I can't believe how easily my crush is making his million.  No threat. Relatively little stress.  Gosh.. I can feel a bit riled up when thinking about it.

In a bigger bank, I would need to deal with much more politics.  What other choices would I have?  There are all those at the top of their career who can only endure the humiliation of getting no bonus but still staying because they have no other place to go.  At the same time, there are also those who are at the beginning of their career who may not have the relationships and experience to get any further at this point.  I now understand the risk of joining a new platform.  I should think twice.  At this point, I should come back when there is that bag of cash to be collected.  What goes around turns around.  I should sit in the seat of my crush at that time.

Hopefully at that time I would be in love and maybe happily married.  So far stress from work has placed me in a less romantic mood.  And thinking about all those potential relationships to manage should I get that promotion is already weighing on me.  How can I get that relatively stress free but high-paying job?  How can I find a financially stable and responsible man?  Hmm... we will see how a few cards turn out this year.