I asked my friend in sales, a Taiwanese American girl from Cali to tea yesterday. When we bumped into my guy in the elevator, he again only acknowledged her and nodded and smiled to her and ignored me completely. I think the only time that happened before was when a racist Aussie manager walked by in my old work place and did not say hi back when I said hi. Maybe my brother? He's never into acknowledging me. But that's it.
This is again not the first time this happened. How foolish I was in thinking he could be a good mentor, a good friend, etc? This is someone that clearly has psychological issues, someone uncomfortable in his own skin, the kind of nouveau riche that needs to validate himself by hurting others.
Half a day later...(to continue)
Anyway, that is that. I really need to get a life. This afternoon I talked to him the first time in months. God it's pathetic. I overheard him talking to his ex-colleague about his ex-boss leaving the bank. He was kind and professional when talking to her, and not the usual flirting he does with the aggressive girls that come up. I was again taken and tested water by asking if his boss left and if he's going to take over his spot. But again, talking to him made me high. I could not contain the enthusiasm I naturally felt and exuded that over to everyone around me. It seems weird how from being utterly bored during lunch and a few hours later I could experience such mood swing by exchanging just one sentence.. but most importantly, I really really need to keep it to myself. How can I just blindly display emotion like this?
Ok Shanghai here I come. I really look forward to it. Ah...
I also spent the night at the Indian guy's place last night. He's actually pretty nice, though he did not come on to me during the night like others normally do. Maybe he's not that interested. We talked for like an hour before we got it on. He's actually very interesting, patient and kind. I think I can be with someone like that. He is smart and worked in good companies in New York and Hong Kong and has a very mature way of looking at the world. He is reasonable and can stand my emotional upheaval and is not threatened about me being a bit achievement oriented.
But then again, it might all be in my head and that imaginary world that is detached from reality......But for the moment, it brings me happiness.
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