Friday my office crush in Hong Kong also showed up to a more important meeting in Shanghai with the senior guys. We bumped into each other in the elevator lobby as we went to use the restroom. He was surprised to find me (shows that he was aloof since I already walked by him before).
Later, he swung by my office area and asked how come I am working in Shanghai. I instinctively replied, "Because I do not want sit next to you as a neighbor any more." He cringed at the answer somehow. It was meant as a joke but I can't deny it's really mostly the truth. He then went to talk to the young girl sitting in front of me before he returned to talk to me again, which made me jealous.
He asked about everyone's background. I dissed the Hong Kong office a bit but I think I should have just practiced my silence and diplomacy. I promised myself that didn't I? Just because in my mind he is someone I could confide to does not mean in reality I should trust him. In fact, I don't. I know he would just use people, for passport, for connections, for promotions. I feel that in him, and I feel that he would just as well abandon friendship for the lack of useful cause. I do not want to be that deserted party. He told me that he always like China more than Hong Kong. For now, I like Shanghai. I like my new friends here and I like the feeling of home here. Weather is cool and a bit rainy, just the kind of nostalgic feeling that attracts me. I feel home.
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