Ok first of all, I'm pretty drunk right now. I just finished having two drinks with a competitor in my space in a semi-bulge bracket in a different firm with similar background as me. He recommended to the Head of Research of a bulge bracket that I join as the lead analyst because he is tied up with his gig. I like him. He's one of the rare personalities on the street, and with the similar Chinese upbringing in a middle of America experience.
I wanted to go back to work on the excuse of being drunk and confront the Chinese guy of my crush. He went to lunch with that younger Private equity girl today like always and I wanted to tell him off.. According to the Cantonese tradition, the married people give lyceees, or red pockets filled with money, to unmarried single people during Chinese New Year. Him being married and secretive about it, received a few red packets from colleagues, most of them more junior and earn less money than him. Why the heck does his dishonesty gets rewarded? Because people think he's single? I think love sometimes turns into hate very quickly. I wish I could have met him after getting drunk today to confront him. But in any case, it didn't happen. He was long gone after I returned to work past 9pm.
In the afternoon I met up with someone who attended the executive program at my college. She's an Italian lady who recently wrote a few books on how to make it etc. and women in leadership. She somehow told me that Hong Kong is not the place for meeting someone. The people she knew who wanted to meet someone moved away from Hong Kong, mostly to Europe. How could this be? All these people telling me to move away. But then what? I don't even know. Maybe I'm destined to be a single childless overachiever? Everyone's got his or her path right? What is mine? She's going to deliver her book to my office tomorrow, maybe I'll see if it is anything other than a publicity stunt. She did mention that people in my age bracket is especially hard, cause most men in their 35-40 range are already married. Fuck this. All I get is negative feedback, perhaps realistic, from the world. What about love and compatibility? She being 38, said echoed the view that love has little to do with being together after marriage. But how can you skip love for such an important thing?
Then again, on the career front, there is possibly a bulge bracket or equivalent opening this year. Not sure if I'd go for that jump. It is nice to work in the same community where clients and enemies alike know you, but then I'd take the risk if I'm really after money and platform.
To love.. I drink to this. I just texted the fit Indian guy that I knew before and see if we could work something out tonight. He texted me while I was in Vegas to see if we could together.
Before I go, I should note that the Vegas trip has been very interesting. I came back on the same plane as an LA executive in Entertainment business. He sat next to me for fifteen hours and talked about his life. Seemed he was laid off from his job that he held for 25 years in Hollywood and got a severance package. From there, he became a writer (wrote a book on career advice for young adults) and created a few youtube videos. The more interesting part for me was how he became much more entrepreneurial then. He worked for himself with a few projects. After five years though, he wanted to have a job back. He was never able to make enough from his ventures to sustain himself. He wanted back. This is after his boss of 23 years ditched him. I can imagine how hard it can be really run a successful business.
To 2013 here we come. I will love this year. Will live it to the fullest. I love you.
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