I think these days I am now back to my original goal of thinking before speaking. After I came back to Hong Kong, I again was truthful in communicating my dissatisfaction of the place to those I meet. It is a nice and convenient place but I feel it is not home. Friends come and go but they are never that rooted. A friend who tapped into my network has been meeting all my friends on my behalf annoyed me a bit. Not only that, he has been talking negatively about me with my friends. Oh, so and so also agreed with me, that you can be quite negative sometimes. Oh, you could be like so and so. Oh you are not really that social and interested in meeting people. He says. I tell you this because I know you can take it.
I think I need to filter my thoughts and what I say. As we grow older, I find that everyone has an agenda to further his or her interest. There is no pure interest in another person, even within a family. People are all self-interested, especially when we roll out capitalism in the midst. Words are like swords, they can spread love and hurt. Though they are invisible, they have lasting effects. I see some less sophisticated friends that speak and ramble on with no clear purpose. It shows one's intelligence and emotional intelligence to be able to send targeted messages to select people. The art of conversation..
Met up with a lot of people and watched "Blue Jasmine" with an ex-colleague of mine. It was a little depressing despite the great performance. The top of the world to the bottom. Hopefully in my climb through accumulated efforts I would never have to face that..
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