I am getting quite neurotic these days. A friend is staying with me, returning to Hong Kong after a year away in London. We are now looking at Hong Kong with renewed eyes and I have an increasing feeling growing inside of me that I need to leave this city. I am getting quite depressed. Work has become ever more unbearable with how cold people are to each other, how no one cares about me.
I still have my heart hung on the strategist. When I saw his coat on his chair today in the morning after being gone for a long while, I was hoping that I would gather enough courage to say hi to him. Instead, the next thing I know, he walked by without greeting me and I saw him waiting for the elevator with that private equity girl. She looked happy. I was feeling devastated.
Meaningless activities one after another. I think this year I will make a major change. I plan to leave the job altogether by mid-year and meanwhile, I am planning to go to Shanghai and not come back for a while. Meaning, no more half half. It should just be one place.
I need to find peace with my mind and spirit. That is the most important thing. My decade in Hong Kong shall draw to a close in 2014. Happy year of the horse!
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