Finding myself in Shanghai

I am sitting in a coffee shop near my Shangahi apartment, after a leisure day of researching properties in Hawaii, yoga practice, and lunch and dinner of wontons.  I can really say that after 10 days of being in the city, my spirit and my soul are back in place.  I am back in my element.

I am not sure whether it is because my old Shanghainese friend's visit and stay with me the week before Shanghai had made me agitated and brought out hidden emotions, but the last few days in Hong Kong made me very agitated.  I felt like ants on the lid of a hot pot, to quote a Chinese saying.  I did all that I should be doing, attending all the birthday drinks and network events, but in the end I felt more frustrated than ever.  People are mostly superficial, and the city has become ever more crowded.  People just move about like they are wound up to move about in their little world.

It's nice to be home.  I can be moving forward from this point, but I am happy I have found that spot in the world to call home in the meantime.

Emotionally stronger

I am getting quite neurotic these days.  A friend is staying with me, returning to Hong Kong after a year away in London.  We are now looking at Hong Kong with renewed eyes and I have an increasing feeling growing inside of me that I need to leave this city.  I am getting quite depressed.  Work has become ever more unbearable with how cold people are to each other, how no one cares about me.

I still have my heart hung on the strategist. When I saw his coat on his chair today in the morning after being gone for a long while, I was hoping that I would gather enough courage to say hi to him.  Instead, the next thing I know, he walked by without greeting me and I saw him waiting for the elevator with that private equity girl.  She looked happy.  I was feeling devastated.

Meaningless activities one after another.  I think this year I will make a major change.  I plan to leave the job altogether by mid-year and meanwhile, I am planning to go to Shanghai and not come back for a while.  Meaning, no more half half. It should just be one place.

 I need to find peace with my mind and spirit.  That is the most important thing.  My decade in Hong Kong shall draw to a close in 2014.  Happy year of the horse!

A new step

Looking back, it had been a year since I started the blog, hoping that I could meet that special someone through methodical determination.  A year later, nothing.  I am however, spending half of my time in Shanghai and liking the change in environment.  Though I am in Hong Kong right now.  I like the warmer weather.